My real first name is James, however it's not what I go by. I live in henderson, ky. I say i'm bisexual when I'm probably 75% gay. Women do still turn me on and I am willing to have sex with women but I'm not at all interested in a relationship with one. I'm mainly attracted to men and as of lately I've had sexual contact with men more than anything.
I am a bit feminine. I have always spoken with a slightly feminine voice. This is probably why several gay men had come on to me when i was younger and wasn't willing to admit that I like men. God, if I could go back and make myself admit it I could've gotten some great dick. Anyway, i'm very feminine in bed. I'm more than willing to get on my hands and knees for a guy as long as they aren't massively equipped. I also have no problem being on top in bed. I've had my fair share of dicks in my mouth. I prefer taking a shot in the mouth. I like the taste of cum.
I've had sexual contact with other boys since I was little. I sucked dick for the first time when I was about 8 years old. It was my neighbor. I can't remember how we got on the subject of taking our pants off and sucking each other. I just remember doing alot of it in his backyard when his parents and brother were not home. That lasted a whole summer. I stopped it because I didn't know if it was right.
My next occurance would happen in 5th grade. It was with my best friend richard. We never actually did anything sexual. We hinted on it alot. I would stay the night at his house. We slept naked together just about every time we would have a sleepover. After about 6 months or so of sleeping naked together we finally got up the nerve to start touching each other. Nothing overly sexual. We would touch each other's cocks and give it a quick stroke. Anytime I would talk about taking it further he would freeze up and act like he didn't want to do anything about it. He had to move away in the middle of 6th grade. I guess I should have just came out and told him I wantd to suck his dick. That may have gotten the response I was wanting.
Shawn would be my third. Shawn was my first boyfriend and my first lover. It started happening almost the same week that richard moved away. Shawn lived just a neighborhood away. His house wasn't more than 10 minutes from mine. We started off just out of the blue. We were playing truth or dare after school at his house. It started off normal truth or dare. Then he wanted to do just nothing but dares.
This was ok with me. I never refuse a dare. He dared me to take my pants off and pull out my dick. I took off my pants and underwear. My dick wasn't hard yet so nobody said anything. I dared him to do the same thing. He took off his pants and underwear. At this point his younger brother was still in the room with us. Shawn told him to leave so we could play in private. His brother left the room and he shut and locked his door. Looking at his hard little dick made me horny. My dick was hard now.
He looked over at me and said, "You have a nice dick, man."
I said, "Yours is pretty cool too."
He said, "What should we do next?"
I said, "Dare me to suck your dick."
He said, "You'll do it?"
I said, "We've already come this far. Why stop now?"
He said, "Ok, I dare you to suck my cock."
He layed back on the floor and spread his legs. I got on the floor on my stomach and started sucking his dick. He absolutely loved it. His mom came home after I had been sucking his dick for about 10 minutes or so. We quickly put our clothes on before she came back into his bedroom. Afterwards, he said that we should spend the night with one another and maybe we could play truth or dare again. i was all for that.
We did play truth or dare again. Several times. At first we had to use "truth or dare" as an excuse to start having sex. After all our rules were that you couldn't turn down a dare. We would start off normal. Then we would dare each other out of our clothes. Finally we would dare each other to suck each other's dicks.
We did this every weekend for about 2 months. Then, I decided to be a bit daring and take it a bit further and see what would happen. I absolutely loved getting naked and sucking shawn's dick and didn't want that to stop at all.
We were on the phone and it was about an hour before he was gonna come over to spend the night. I said, "I don't wanna play truth or dare tonight."
He said, "Why not? I thought you like it. I know I do."
I said, "I was thinking we could just skip the normal truth or dare and get to the good stuff."
He said, "I'm not sure what you mean."
I said, "Well, we both want to have the sleepovers so we can have sex. We aren't literally fucking but we're still having sex."
He said, "I didn't want to say anything but I've been wanting to say that for a couple weeks now."
I said, "So when you come over and it's time for us to go to bed we can just take off our clothes and get to what we want instead of wasting an hour."
We did just that. At around 10pm it was time for us to go to sleep. We went into my room. We both took off our clothes and got into bed. We started making out first. We would play with each other as we kissed. Once we were both hard I would go under the covers and start sucking his dick. He moved in closer and started sucking me off at the same time. God, this was pure heaven. I got to suck and be sucked at the same time.
We continued this for over a year. We spent the night with each other just about every weekend. Everytime we would have a sleepover we would get naked, make out and suck each other off. The talk about girls and such had dwindled down to nothing. We were too interested in dicks to talk about girls. We decided over the phone that we would be boyfriends. We wouldn't do it in public but at home. We knew that too many ppl would freak out.
We were after school boyfriends up until he moved away in 7th grade. I spoke to him a couple times later in that year when he was visiting but it wasn't the same. I didn't know how to tell him that I very much wanted to keep doing what we used to do. I know now that if he had never moved away I would be 100% gay right now.
I wouldn't have too many opportunities with guys for a long while. I would get one here and there but nothing significant. I just focused my attention to women. I chalked it up to "experimentation."
It wouldn't be until after I got married that I would become significantly interested in men again. I was sexually attracted to my wife. Before we were married we had sex literally every night for about 3 straight months. It just seems that all the stuff you hear/see on tv is true. You say "I Do", go on your honeymoon and when you get back the sex just slows down a ton. Nobody did anything different. My wife just became what every other wife is.
I am a guy therefor I have a high sex drive. On nights were we didn't have sex I would download porno and jack off to it. I started realizing that when I watched the straight porno I was focusing on the dick. That was what was getting me off. Eventually I would watch the straight stuff and imagine that It was me he was fucking. His dick pumping in and out of my ass. Me sucking his dick. I finally broke down and started downloading gay porno by the gigs.
I felt I had to hide the gay porn, though. I had told my wife about my prior experiences with guys and she was ok with it. I felt like if she new I was masturbating to gay porn she would start thinking things. At that point I would have never cheated on my wife. Ever. So, I buried the gay porn in a folder she would never look to find it.
Years passed. We were down to having sex once a week and even that was alot. I needed sex dammit. I heard about an adult bookstore that was on my way to work. One day after work I decided to stop by it and see what was up.
I knew this bookstore had booths. Pornos played, you jack off, you go home. I wanted to try it out because I've always been a closet exhibitionist. The thrill of jacking off in a public place was exciting. Well, I went in, got some tokens and went to the back. I found a booth in the corner in the back. I took off my clothes and started to masturbate.
I looked to my right and noticed a large plastic window with a button on the side. I pushed it and saw the guy on the other side of the wall. He had his clothes off and was masturbating as well. We sat there doing our thing and then he motions for me to join him. I was nervous since I didn't know the guy.
I pull my pants up but didn't bother buttoning or zipping them. I walk out and into his booth. He pulls me in and shuts the door. He drops my pants and sucks my dick like it was cherry flavored. I couldn't do anything but stand there and enjoy the blowjob.
I left shortly after. I thoroughly enjoyed my experience there. I found out later that you really aren't supposed to have 2 ppl per booth but nobody cares and that's 90% of the reason anyone goes there. I would make trips to the bookstore a weekly thing. Eventually I got to the point were I would just go to a booth and leave my door open. If someone saw me, liked me and wanted some action they just came in. I would suck them off, they would suck me off and we would both leave.
Now, I was highly interested in guys. Moreso than before. It was worse now because I was an adult. I wasn't living at home with parents so I could actually act on my desires.
I put out a personal ad searching for men for late night encounters and I had joined a yahoo group that was devoted to gay and bisexual men in my area. I posted my ad and just waited. In the meantime, my wife and I would hang out and another couple's place on the weekends. We would party, get drunk and hang out. Me and Don were trying to get the girls to have sex. The end result would be Don and I having sex. The girls never found out about it. Well, one night when all 4 of us were fucked up we tried to get the girls to mess around.
Andrea said, "You suck Don's dick first."
I didn't even know if Don would let me. I just thought fuck it and said, "Don, pull down your pants."
Don didn't even hesitate. He pulled his jeans and underwear down and I started sucking his dick. That would start off a secret affair between Don and I. When the girls would both go to the store, Don and I would strip and fool around. It only happened a few times.
That all stopped one day when I got home from work and my wife said she wanted a divorce. She said she just didn't want to be married anymore. She said she was going to go to the lake with Andrea and she was taking the kids with her. She left and I was left alone. I was hurt and pissed and mad all at the same time. Then, I just decided that I would get even in my own way.
I had been talking to a guy through messenger. He knew me but said he didn't know if I knew him. He wanted to hook up but I wouldn't let him because I was married. Well, I could do whatever I wanted now.
Before I get into what happened that night, I'll tell you about when we first met. It was a night I was up chatting with him on messenger. I was horny as fuck and my wife wouldn't do anything. Bill wanted me to come over so we could meet. It was about midnight and kara was fast asleep. I got on my shoes and drove over to his house.
Bill answered the door in just his boxers. He invited me in and we sat down at his couch. I took the middle pad and he sat right next to me. We sat there and talked about this and that. What I did for a living, what he did. We talked about my interests and his. During this conversation I noticed his hand moved from his leg to my crotch. We were talking casually and he was rubbing my dick to a massive hardon.
We were still in the middle of the conversation. We hadn't broken a word. He continued like it was no big deal. I was over there wearing a t-shirt and soccer shorts with no underwear. He reached up the leg of my shorts and was stroking my dick. God, I wanted him. I wanted to get naked and fuck him. Only one thing stopping me was Kara. I wasn't about to get a divorce over a one night stand. I told him that I didn't think tonight was a good idea because I wasn't sure if Kara would wake up while I was gone or not. I told hi m I would call him and I left.
I was for sure i would never see him again. I was way too attracted to him. I had only met him in person once and I was damn near naked with him. Well, when she said she wanted a divorce that was that. First thing that entered my mind was.....I WANT TO FUCK BILL.
Anyway, Kara left with the boys. I picked up my cell and called Bill. I told him that she was out of town with the kids and I wanted to know if he wanted company. That night was the start of a hot and heavy thing.